This is one of my fave all-time quotes.
If you’ve been around here for a while, you know why.
If you’re new here, let’s catch up you a little.
I’m a TeamBeachbody Coach and have been for almost 4 years.
I’m actually currently a “plus-size” TeamBeachbody Coach.
And, in all honesty, in a place in my life I can proudly say that.
However, a year ago, I did not wear that honor well.
In fact, I was such a hot mess I couldn’t see anything for what it was worth in my life. And, I was letting my plus-sized-ness start to paralyze me from what I had set out to do to help myself heal and help support others along the way.
You can read more of the story here and here but my life has been a history of yo-yo dieting and yo-yo weight loss. I’ve tried every “diet” under the sun ~ many many pills, wraps and quick fixes ~ spend thousands on gym memberships and at-home equipment like treadmills, ellipticals….even some “amazing breakthru” ab belt that was supposed to do ALL THE WORK for you once you strapped it on and sat down and get you rock solid abs AND more. #asif
So, when I found coaching, it was like a lifeline.
It was FINALLY something that WORKED!
For less than my cell phone for one month, I invested in my health (and sanity to be honest) to get going with a fitness program and I used a superfood nutritional shake monthly which I never truly had to pay for (part of the awesome rewards we get as coaches) but would’ve PAID way more in a heartbeat for what it did for me. I spent the next year-and-a-half surrounded by awesome and amazing coaches and clients who pushed me and helped me stay accountable and I went on to lose upwards of 40 lbs.
And, then my life took a not-so-litte detour. You can read about it HERE.
But, in the end, it’s not really important what happened or what didn’t happen in the middle of my coaching journey.
What’s important right now is RIGHT NOW.
I said in my last post that I can’t use the excuse of feeling like a crazy person and gaining weight be my story on why I didn’t and why I ultimately can’t succeed now.
I have the same tools, resources and rockstar people surrounding me as I did when I first got started with this…plus a bunch more rockstars who joined along the way.
And, because of that, I can finally say with pride that I’M A FREAKING PLUS-SIZE BEACHBODY COACH. I honestly don’t even really break the mold by being this because honestly coaches come in all shapes and sizes and ages. However, I’ll be straight up that I had a vision in my mind of the example I wanted to be as a coach and I was not living up to that vision.
And, you know what? That’s OK. I may not be the picture perfect vision I had for a while in my head. But, I’m embracing where I’m at RIGHT FREAKING NOW. I’m gonna boldly and proudly say that I have earned this body….because I have!
And, because I love my body, I’m gonna keep pushing and honoring it the best I know how.
AND, because that means being the best, most healthy and strong version of myself I can be…..
I’ve decided to commit to a new OLD goal of mine.
I share this part of my story to be vulernable with y’all and to show you that if I can do this literally ANYONE can do this.
I’m making it a goal to compete in and rock a bikini/fitness competition next June.
NOW, if you’ve been around here for a while, you know I’ve set out to do this before.
You likely know I set out to do this TWICE before.
If you’re new here, I’ll be straight up with y’all I FAILED at this not-so-little goal miserably….twice before.
I don’t like to say I failed at something because in my eyes, as long as I do my best and am out there TRYING, I’m not failing.
But, unfortunately I literally stopped trying the times before. I gave up. I didn’t go after what I wanted after the moment passed.
But, I wanna be the one to tell you to give yourself some freaking grace if you’ve set out on a goal and got lost along the way….even….no ESPECIALLY if you’ve gotten lost more than once
‘cuz you know what?!? It doesn’t matter how many day 1s you’ve had. It doesn’t matter how many times you fallen. It doesn’t matter if no one else in your life supports you or understands it.
If you have it on your heart to do something, you can have as many day 1s as it takes! If you fall 7 times, you can get up 8. And, all you need is YOU and that little voice in your head being your best friend instead of your worst enemy.
We have ONE life to live and I’m of the belief that you can look different, have to fight harder, be the underdog and still somehow still succeed and maybe even get MORE out of it because you had to work harder for it! Who cares if people roll their eyes at your dream! Who cares if your haters make fun of you behind your back! Who cares if you zig-zag and roller coaster your way there….as long as you GET THERE?
I think we have this idea in our heads of what success looks like but have you ever since this??
I’ve been inspired by many amazing women along the way and my most recent #girlcrush and bikini inspiration is miss Kyra. I’m hoping to do an interview soon and share her amazing story with y’all but she was exactly whose story I needed to hear to commit to this yet again!
She shared her heart on a team call a few weeks ago and I’d already been thinking I needed to try this again. It wasn’t easy for her but her heart and passion for doing what she did TOTALLY inspired me. She even talked about how she still had insecurities and battles to fight after losing 80 lbs. It just goes to show that it’s not about the scale! It’s about what’s within, growing from the inside and how a part of us will always have to fight hard to remember who we are!
And, I know it won’t be easy for me. But, I think if I don’t do this, I’m always gonna look back on it as something I wished I would have.
And, gotta also give some love to these two inspirations! They have also played such a huge role in my going after this!! All of these amazing ladies have achieved their results with Beachbody programs AT HOME!!!! Meet Stacy & Kailin! You can click on their pics to go to their pages for more inspiration 🙂 Kailin even pushed play on Insanity and continued on her journey after reading an email from her husband that was deployed that he wanted a divorce. That video is below and I’ve watched it many times whenever I need a little motivation to #pushplay. My heart hurt so bad for her! But, what she did that day is a true testament to the human spirit!
So, there ya have it!!!
I WILL beat her.
I WILL trainer harder.
I WILL eat cleaner.
I know her weaknesses.
I know her strengths.
I’ve lost to her before,
but not this time.
She is going down.
I have the advantage.
Because I know her well…
She is the OLD me.