Hey ya’ll (btw, I’ll explain below, but this is totally like the first time I feel like saying/writing “ya’ll” is truly accepted)!
So, it’s been a while since I’ve blogged. I think I’ve maybe published ONE post in the past several weeks.
Truth is, I’ve been feeling really uninspired….not feeling like anything I write is good enuf to actually hit PUBLISH on….not feeling like anyone cares about what I would have to say….not feeling like myself….questioning so many things.
I type this as I sit at a table in our hotel lobby
writing this post and people watching. I really had something I wanted to share today, and I thought about blogging in my room but one of my FAVE things EVER is to people watch….so let’s see if I can multi-task and get this done. (btw, it’s not a good idea to multi-task….I know this…you know this….Our brains just weren’t made to do it….I’ve even heard it said a few times in our sessions over the past few days….but in some cases, making it work is more fun that not so that’s my story tonight.) So, we’ve been in New Orleans since Saturday afternoon for an annual conference I am fortunate to be able to go to for work and I think one of the most fun things here (well, pretty much anywhere I am) is to people watch. And, why I say this is I love looking at someone and thinking “What’s your story….where do you come from….what has life thrown at you.” Oh, AND just keepin’ it real here but sometimes I totally just LOVE to see what people are WEARING! Ya’ll know I’m totally into fashion so it’s one of the best things to see so many different senses of style. (And, omg, if you’ve ever been on Bourbon Street, you likely know some of the “fashion” statements you can come across but I digress.)
But, the thing about people-watching down here is also seeing things that hurt my heart. Honestly, even a lot of what I saw on Bourbon Street was kinda hurt my heart. And, then on my run this morning on the Riverwalk…..It’s a beautiful place to be right along the Mississippi but I couldn’t help but feel sad as with almost every step I took I saw a different homeless person asleep on a bench or on the ground or on the steps down to the water….some of them with literally nothing but the clothes on their backs. I couldn’t help but think….what happened to you….what’s your story….how long has this been your life. I teared up over and over again. It was hot. I was miserable. And, I couldn’t help but feel a little guilty when my biggest concern along the way was how hot and humid it was and just putting one foot in front of the other. I reflected on just how blessed I am. Blessed for opportunities to travel….to attend things that feel my soul….for a great job….for amazing friends and family….for the ability to run….to even have nice shoes to run in….to be able to eat whenever I wanted….for coaching….for being able to write….for even owning a laptop to be able to write….
Yes, I am beyond blessed.
But, yet, for months I’ve been feeling uninspired….lonely even tho I’m far from alone….and honestly a little….maybe a lot…lost.
I truly believe God puts you in the right place at the right time. I’ve been searching for clarity right now, and I think I needed to see the faces of despair to be reminded of how much I have been given. And, I KNOW I needed this conference and the people that have been speaking life back into me. Yes, this is a conference for work that I’ve been fortunate enuf to be able to go to every year for four years now but it’s a conference that always delivers so much more than ideas on how to be a better assistant to my boss.
I’ve listened to an amazing woman who was on Survivor and made it to the final 4 people and who had a message for us that left me feeling so hopeful again! I’ve listened to a man talk about how it’s so common place for businesses to have a 5-year-plan but why is it not-so-common to think about your PERSONAL 5-year-plan?! I’ve listened to people talk about positivity and focus and clarity in the face of adversity.
AND, one of the most powerful things I listened to was this morning.
Our keynote speaker today was a Mr. Jonathan Mann…a.k.a. the song a day man.
If you don’t know who he is, you can check his story out on wikipedia here. His story is pretty amazing because you see…..he’s written a song every day for like 2843 days (he even wrote a song for us today! #2843!). Yes, every day since January of 2009, he has written a song! And, published it via video on YouTube. Many of these have gone viral. He’s gotten attention from Microsoft and Apple…and Steve Jobs even danced a little jig to one of his songs. But, what I found most inspiring and most amazing about him was that there was a time in his life where he was selling things on the street just to pay the bills. Until one day he just decided to do something different (If you want something different….you have to DO something different.) He decided to do something that he loved to do and find a way to make a living doing it. He said he’s been asked countless times “WHY?” Why do you want to write a song every day? How did it start? Why do you keep going? He said, “Because I’m happiest when I’m making things.” Ok, so….he & I TOTALLY have the same dry, quirky sense of humor and I’m sure that’s a lot of why he spoke so much to me but the bigger picture was that he turned what he loved doing into his career….into something that changed his life. He thought outside the box and did something that fed his soul every day. And, get this….The Guinness Book of World Records even had to create a new “world record” just for him in “the most consecutive days writing a song!” He said growing up it was always a goal of his to make a world record and he did it!
It’s just so amazing to me. And, then something pretty cool happened….He challenged all of us to “start making a thing a day.” And, maybe ya’ll know how I am about being challenged to do something…..of course I’m IN! And, what’s great is that he said it doesn’t have to big….it doesn’t have to be perfect….it just has to be SOMETHING.
He said that he operates on a 70/20/10 rule. 70 percent of the songs he writes will be pretty bad….20 percent of the songs will be mediocre…just ok…and 10 percent…just 10 percent will be REALLY GOOD. 10 percent will maybe go viral. But, 10 percent is good enuf….good enuf to let him chase his dreams! He said writing a song every day is exactly what keeps his creativity flowing….it’s what helps him keep writer’s block at bay.
And, I couldn’t help but think of my writing. I’ve been blaming my not blogging on writers block….on not having enuf time….on feeling uninspired…and DEFINITELY about not feeling like anything I have to write is “good enuf to share.” But, he challenged us to think about when we’re our happiest. When I write is one of those times for me. And, it’s almost like he gave me permission to be able to publish a blog post even if it’s not perfect. So, I had to ask myself why I’m letting myself stay stuck. Why can’t I take my own advice and get UNSTUCK? It’s totally been fear ~ it’s wanting to be perfect even tho I’m not. Being afraid will keep you stuck forever. I had to remind myself that it’s ok to do things afraid….to be ok with FEELING afraid but to not be ok with it keeping you stuck.
So, I decided today that I’m gonna push thru my fears….and get inspired again….starting TODAY!
I decided I’m going to blog and PUBLISH something new EVERY DAY for an entire year!
Why do you ask? Ha, maybe you didn’t….but…
I don’t set out to do this because I think ya’ll are just DYING to see what I have to say every day, and I’m pretty sure I know not every post is gonna be perfectly wonderful and everyone will love it. AND, I also realize that a lot of you probably could care less if I’m setting out to do this.
But, the thing is, it’s for me. Because one of the things that makes me the happiest is writing. And, because of what Jonathan said today I realized that if I stop writing, I WILL have writers block….and I WILL feel uninspired.
And, that’s not who I want to be. I don’t want to be the person that gave up when things got too hard. I don’t want to be the person who makes excuses of not having enuf time….we always have enuf time for what’s truly important to us. I don’t want to be the person who stays stuck ‘cuz stepping outside the box is too hard.
I want to be the person who inspires someone else to do something they maybe wouldn’t have ~ like so many others have done for me. I want to be the person who does things afraid…over and over again. And, I want to be the person who thanks God every single day for all the blessings I’ve been given.