So, I got a little tough love from my coach Val last week.
It kinda sucked. But, it was totally the truth.
I’m honestly not even sure how we got to that moment but she helped me realize something I’ve been doing….for a while now….and something I need to STOP doing lol.
And, MAYYYYYYYYBE ya’ll have noticed it as well lol.
So, I do this thing where I slip up on my nutrition and then I think I need to go cold turkey without any cheats and treats and then I decide going cold turkey is just too hard and messes with my mind so I say I’m gonna allow myself one meal a week or one meal a month…..yadda yadda yadda….only to end up slipping up even a little MORE and to the point that then I feel like I’m failing and then I say I’m going to go cold turkey again.
So, you can be honest with me. Have you been following me for a while and have you noticed I do in fact do this???
Ha, ok, guilty as charged.
To give a little more back story on why it’s important for me not to do this any more, my truth is that I’ve tried a LOT of different things when it comes to nutrition. Some have been really good and some not so good.
Just a recap of the approaches I’ve tried:
- South Beach
- Fat Flush
- Things like Hydroxycut, SlimQuick or something like that, and a few other diet pills I can’t remember the name of.
- SlimFast and Advocare shakes and a few others I can’t remember the name of.
- 21 Day Fix container system
- IIFYM/flexible dieting
- Whole 30
- AND, I have several books on elimination diets (like the Whole 30) and a book by Natalie Jill and several books on PaleoAnd, now, just a recap of how some of those approached worked….or didn’t lol:
- I was a WW member for more than 10 years, so that approach was never a short-term fix. The problem with how I did WW was that I used my Pts for not-so-good choices. I lived on Smart Ones and Lean Cuisines, 100-cal packs and Diet Coke (‘cuz diet pop was FREE! All you WWers out there know what I’m talking about with FREE food and drink lol). Now, I did in fact get down to my lowest weight in my adult life on WW, but it just wasn’t healthy the way I was doing it.
- The problem with all my low to lower-carb approaches like South Beach and Atkins was that I KNEW deep-down I could never be low carb. I just wanted to drop weight fast and had seen other people around me do it, so I gave each of them a try back in the day. The thing is, I like carbs. 😉
- I KNEW pills and shakes were never gonna truly help me in the long run. BUT, again, I saw other people “seemingly” have success losing weight with them, so I had to try, too. And, I wasted a TON of money on them and it scares me how they affected my body.
- The Whole 30 and elimination approaches were in the hopes of fixing my stomach problems I dealt with earlier this year AND honestly to start the scale in the right direction after months of slowly gaining (I was eating a lot of comfort food for my stomach ~ soda crackers, pasta, soup, bread ~ and I wasn’t working out like I was used to). It was a hard time and a battle of just not feeling good. And, after who knows how many doctor appointments and blood tests and two ultrasounds and even a CT scan and STILL no answers, they diagnosed me with IBS and prescribed me another antibiotic but a really powerful, expensive one and within a few weeks, I was pretty much back to normal and now I’m happy to say as long as I don’t go crazy with bad choices, I’m virtually symptom-free! I tried those things based on a lot of research and some awesome people reaching out to me after reading my blog and trying to help me with things that had helped them. I do believe being gluten and dairy free can be a really good way to go for a lot of people. But, I also believe unless you absolutely HAVE to give up either of them, in moderation they are just fine.
- I’ve tried IIFYM/flexible dieting a few times now and I got overwhelmed with the calculating and just not feeling like I’m doing it right. AND, I also reverted a little bit back to my old WW days in that I was purposely making JUNK fit….just because I could lol.
- And, the containers and Shakeology have without a doubt been the healthiest approach I’ve ever taken and that which I’ve been the most consistent with. The ONLY problem with the containers for me is that when I eat something not on the food lists, I do that thing that I described above.
So, it would seem I’m stuck in this vicious cycle of going way too strict FOR ME, then saying it’s okay to cheat, and then taking it a little too far and deciding I need to go strict again lol.
I’m making a decision to stop that train. And, in the past several weeks, even before Val’s tough love talk lol, I had been looking back into flexible dieting and starting to track again. The containers are “easier” but I’m finding that because I’m so active and I’m about to become even more active with teaching Country Heat, I need an approach more tailored to my lifestyle and what fits for my activity and my goals. (And, I’ve talked about it before but the containers are actually kinda like “macros for dummies” ‘cuz they are macro-based and all you gotta do is fill them with the appropriate foods and not have to worry about weighing or calculating or counting!) But, more importantly, it’s unsexy and it’s a way to stop the cycle of strict and then not strict enough and then strict and then….well you get the drift. It allows me the freedom and flexibility of my coffee creamer (yes, still in moderation) and beers from time to time BUT still focuses primarily on whole foods.
And, why I share this is to be transparent about my approach in this season. I’m getting awesome results from Country Heat. But, the truth is my nutrition was totally #onpoint the first week and then little by little I started wavering….and I started beating myself up. I want to be honest with ya’ll when I struggle. And, maybe most importantly I want you to be okay with STRUGGLING too. It’s ok to struggle….we’re human. We all have to find the right thing for our goals and that fits our lifestyle. So, whatever that looks like for you is what’s important.
As I progress, I’m gonna be sharing the days where I wanna just eat cupcakes….and of course when I do in fact #eatallthecupcakes #justkidding #thatsnotreallyhowitworks #butagirlcandream. Ok, ha, I already do that part anyway but this is gonna be a kinda new but old approach to my nutrition and I’m excited about it. (Ha, although, I’m kinda afraid to say “I’m excited” ‘cuz that’s the thing that often gets me in trouble ~ I’ve been excited about a lot of things that looked like they would work and help me and things didn’t quite turn out that way lol. BUT, this…I can safely say and be excited about ‘cuz this is just another lifestyle approach!) And, I’m excited to share more about how flexible dieting works with all of you 🙂 Skinny Meg and a super cool chick who goes by Poppy Locks have been inspiring me for a long long time and I’ve learned a lot from them on how to do this!
And, it’s also gonna help me as I start focusing on my new goals! Getting ready to teach Country Heat Live, running another half marathon AND doing that fitness competition I decided to forego earlier this year!
This girl right here has been a huge inspiration to me in deciding to go after this again. I’m not sure I have it in me. I’m really not. But, she said something to me last week that made me wanna push again. We’d been chatting ‘cuz I wanted to give her a #wcw shout out….’cuz seriously she’s amazingly fit and so inspiring! She teaches Insanity Live! And, ROCKED the stage in Nashville this year and I was telling her last week that I’ve been considering committing to it again and she said to do it and that I was part of her inspiration to do it last year! It’s kinda funny how life works sometimes 🙂 I’m so happy me talking about it last year pushed her to do it!! AND, now to watch her go through the sacrifices and the hard times but to hear how amazing and happy she was that she did it meant everything. Her name is Stacy. She’s super chill, a teammate, a wife and a mom of 2. And, I’m really hoping to share more of her story soon but here’s a glimpse of what she’s done all with Beachbody products!!
Wow, right?!?! #amazeballs
And, so I will keep pushing! They say you will truly succeed when the pain of change is easier than the pain of staying the same. I set out on a goal last year at about this time and I didn’t make it. But, it’s ok. I knew I could decide to try again, and it’s that time to chase big dreams again. And, as always, I don’t mean just the dream of doing this competition…’cuz I can tell you the thought of that stage STILL FREAKS ME OUT. But, the thrill of the challenge and the thrill of the ride last year led me to some really amazing things. Even if I didn’t end up on that stage this summer, where the journey brought me was exactly where I needed to be.
So, as the song goes, “Here I go again on my own…..going down the only road I’ve ever known…” ~ except thanks to my coach, my team, my family and friends I’m never on my own….and for most of my life going down the only road I knew was detour after detour….so I’m blazing a new path this time and using an amazingly fun little workout called Country Heat to start it off.
On the left is the start of week 2, right start of week 3. I’m saving my before pics for the end 🙂
And, the scale was up a little over 2 lbs. this week. This would be the part where I say you can’t always judge success by the scale because I lost more inches even though I gained a little weight. This is exactly why I’m taking pics and measurements every week and why it’s important that if you’re on a fitness journey out there as well you are doing this too!!
And, ironically it’s day 23 today on my inspiration board and it says “ambitious goals make for outstanding achievements” ~ I would say this is fitting! STAY TUNED!