Wow, has it been like 2 weeks since I posted a blog!?! Eeeek. I know I haven’t been writing a lot but didn’t realize it had been that long! I’ve been having a hard time putting thoughts into words lately. And, I’ve been refocusing on my health & fitness goals after 6 weeks of chaos in that department!
I realized today as I finish up this post on my progress for my fitness competition at the end of July that I’ve been living in “the space between.”
I went from the lowest weight I’d been since 2014 at around 164 to the highest I’ve been around 177 in the span of 6 short weeks. (No, this isn’t just about weight ~ this is just the perfect example of the “symptom” of what happens when my mind isn’t in the right place).
Ha, all the girls in the house are like, UGH, why does it seem so easy to gain 13 lbs. in 6 weeks but so hard to lose 13 lbs. in 6 weeks.
Now, I realize not all of that is real “weight”…..it’s a lot of water weight (and i’m already down over 5 lbs. since Monday so yessssss water). Enter in a trip to Arizona where I ate and drank freely (I made good choices at the beginning of our days….not so good in the evenings…but honestly I still feel like it was worth it!), our Caribbean cruise (I had Shakeo every day, lots of fruits & veggies….BUT, I drank and I drank early lol.), some stomach issues where nothing sounded good but pasta, bread, chocolate and CUPCAKES (and I ate them ALLLLLLLLLLLL) and honestly a lot of laziness and lack of discipline in my to meal planning, eating right and simply honoring my health & fitness goals.
The week I was sick and for several days after turned into some closet eating again after going so so long without that behavior. I was getting up in the middle of the night to eat reese’s pb and snicker eggs from Easter. #whatdontyoudothat? 😉 #imeanhaventyoutriedthem?
ANDDDDDDDDD, before I knew it, the scale was on the verge of 180.
NOW, ya’ll know I hate the scale and for most of my clients I tell them to base their success on their measurements, their pics AND most importantly how they are feeling! HOWEVER, for me and this competition, I still am clinging to that scale. I have said that thing will be gone after this is over and that is still my plan! I have to keep one for my Biggest Loser competition and if I haven’t reached my goal, I will continue to participate in that and I have entered a 6-month long transformation on Dietbet.com!! I need as much accountability as I can get right now.
So, for the past 2 weeks, I’ve been refocusing. I was still working out during those 6 weeks BUT as I know just as well as anyone who’s tried, you can NEVER….I’ll repeat NEVER….out work a bad diet. Thank goodness I was tho ‘cuz what it does for my stress and energy levels is amazing ~ and I still felt tired since my nutrition wasn’t on point! Hate to think how I woulda felt without exercise!
And, then on Monday, I saw something on Facebook that caught my attention! A 60-day #summerstrong challenge where Beachbody is giving away transformation prizes and you could join different accountability groups based on what fitness program you wanted to use during those 60 days. Of course I joined the Hammer&Chisel group right away and since I had already committed to dialing in my nutrition again, I FULLY committed to 60 days of no cheats (except ONE Diet Coke on Fridays and coffee creamer). This means I have to go thru my birthday and who knows how many events without indulging. And, if you know me, you know I love to golf and drink beer….and women’s stag starts soon. Yep, #sucksforme. BUT, I can do this! I’m tired of living in the space between.
- The space between being as bad and as self-destructive with my food and addictive behaviors as before I found coaching AND finally having the transformation picture I can look and say although I’m never done THIS is what I’ve been working for.
- The space between utter self-sabotage that I can remember a few times in my life where things were spiraling out of control AND the day I finally feel like I’ve truly overcome.
- The space between being consumed and paralyzed by my guilt AND the day I finally let go.
- The space between being so depressed that I called in sick to work AND the day depression had no hold on me.
- The space between feeling lost AND the day I give my marriage 100% and expect nothing in return. (Have you heard of this 100/0 rule? I think most people would say marriage should be 50/50 or 100/100 but to honor God and your relationship, if you put 100% effort while expecting even NOTHING 0% in return, it can change everything.)
- The space between feeling like I had no idea what I wanted to be when I grew up AND knowing without a doubt I will be able to repurpose my life way earlier than “the rule of 85!”
- The space between feeling like a complete hot mess and failure of a mom AND the comfort and realization that I’m doing the BEST I possibly can.
I’ve been living in that space in between. I’m nowhere near as broken as I was YET I’m not where I want to be. My weight crept back up again because I let go of my goals.
And, maybe that’s life. Maybe we are always living in the space between. Or at least we often go back to that when life gets hard or we get lazy.
But, I’m reading this new book called The 10X Rule and it’s speaking new life into me.
I don’t want to be average. I don’t want to settle for the SPACE BETWEEN. I want the 10X life….my champagne life as Cara Alwill Leyba would call it. The life where at the end of the day I pray and not only do I pray and thank God for everything he has given me BUT I fall asleep KNOWING that I gave Him and my family and my passion and the day everything I had.
Are you living in the space between???? Ask yourself. Be true to yourself and the answer.
One of my favorite parts of The 10X Rule so far ~ “Your last breath is not nearly as important as your next breath.”
I’m just gonna BREATHE! I’m gonna think about my next breath and let go of the past. I’m going to honor myself and my goals! And, as part of honoring my goals, I’m making sure I’m staying in touch with my coach! I would want my clients to do the same! So, when I started struggling on Thursday and had the urge to turn to food, I instead reached out to her….and she talked me off the ledge. I’m happy to say I didn’t give in! I didn’t give up! That’s what we do as coaches and friends! We’re not experts or perfect BUT we are damn good listeners and #lifepushers!!
Click on the image to go to Amazon! I’m listening to it on the Audible app! LOVE Audible!!
I just finished re-reading Girl Code for the 2nd time and found even more nuggets for life!
You can find out what the champagne life is in this book.
I’m working on a post about the changes in my coaching business! LOTS is happening behind the scenes and I’m BEYOND excited for them!!! Stay tuned! I’m adding to my tribe my friends! Will it be you?!
Ya’ll know I love Chalene Johnson! I love my Erin Condren day planner BUT for actually planning and mapping out my #girlbossgoals, THIS rocks my socks off! Click on the image to get your free copy!!
And, as part of what’s happening with my tribe and my champagne life, my blog and my social media outlets are getting a new face! Eeek, I’m excited!!! I’m gonna be doing some fun giveaways over these next several months in honor of the changes coming AND can you believe my 2-year bloggiversary is coming up in May!! Be sure to LIKE my fitness page if you haven’t already so you can be the first to know when these prize giveaways are happening! I’m gonna be challenging you in order to be eligible BUT I promise it’s gonna be fun!!
And, I couldn’t leave you after several weeks with no post without a pic of this little angel. (Ha, especially when she’s asleep!)
I started the #100HappyDays posts again! Guess who was my Day 1! Join me will you? Just use the hashtag #100HappyDays and I’ll look for you! OR feel free to email me at firstname.lastname@example.org if you want to do this! It’s like a virtual gratitude journal!
OKIE DOKIE guys! Thanks for tuning in!
I’m hoping I’m over my writer’s block and anxious to start blogging more with my new design! It goes live next week!
Have a WONDERFUL SaTuRdAy! And, what if you honored your health & fitness goals TODAY like you would on Monday!?!?
I know I am!
#justbreathe #realtalkwithdina #thespacebetween #dontliveanaveragelife